But I have another frustration, I am missing my creative energy. Most of you who have read this blog probably don't realise that for 11 years I was a garden designer and landscaper. For most of those years I loved every minute of it but then slowly I started putting my body under pressure by taking on too many jobs at one time, I had the habit of saying "yes" to a job before I'd worked out a way of finding time for it. Then I moved into the basement of a beautiful Scottish mansion rent free in exchange for cutting the lawns of the 8 acre garden.
It seemed a good idea at the time but the increased workload meant that my back gave out in a bad way and I had to give it up under doctors orders.
Now that my back is stronger again and I've had to endure an enforced rest I really miss the opportunity that I had to use my creative juices and interact with clients.
Most of my clients usually had a fair idea of what they wanted their garden to look like but are overawed with the creative design process so they come to me to put their ideas on paper. It was sadly rare for a client to come to me and say 'do whatever you like'. I have to admit that I would have loved it if a client let me go wild with my ideas and gave me a budget to match but really that would be impractical for many reasons. Firstly I did not do the design for me, my designs were for the customer. Therefore I had to design something that appealed to them aesthetically. I also had to design a garden that suited their lifestyle. There was no point in designing a garden that involved a lot of maintenance if they weren't keen gardeners or if they worked two jobs and simply didn't have the spare time or energy to maintain it.
I don't believe in instant gardening, by that I mean I don't believe in buying specimen plants that are going to fill an area out. I believe that gardens should have a period of growth. Gardens evolve with time, they change with the seasons and mature.